By Robin Hillard

sfgenreRosalie nipped my ear and I swatted her, just as Dad came in. He waved a vase of roses to thump me. Mum’s favourite vase. She screamed and he lost focus. The vase crashed, Rosalie Buzzed off and the parents turned on me.

“Leave your sister alone,” Dad said. “You have a special gift…”

I groaned. What’s so special about Changing Shape? So I can spend my Saturday working on Uncle Desmond’s farm, as an elephant.

“Everything’s easy for you,” my uncle says. But even elephants get tired. Sometimes I wish I were like Rosalie. She’ll never grow bigger than a mouse and nobody expects her to work.

I made my first Change when I was three. I should have kept it quiet, but I was only a kid and Mum was searching for my Gift.

“Din-dins, Freddy,” she would say. ““Point to din-dins.” 

I waved my fist. 

“Show him, Reg. Show Freddy how to Move.”

Dad waved his hand and the plate rose. I screamed as it wafted away.

“It’s no good, Maude, he’ll never be a Mover. Dad waved my dinner back.

“Perhaps he’s an invisible, like me,” Mum said. “Hide, Freddy.”

I crawled under the bed.

“No. Hide like this. Ccch. . .” And she wasn’t there.

I screamed. 

She shimmered back. “Hide, Freddy. Ccch.” 

“Ccch.” I squeezed into a cupboard. 

She pulled me out. “Hide, Freddy.”

“He’s not an Invisible, Mum,” Raymond said. My brother tossed me onto his shoulder and took me outside.

Raymond isn’t a Mover or an Invisible, he’s a Seeker. When Mum lost her keys, he wriggled his fingers, sniffed, and found them on the kitchen floor.

Seeking is a comfortable gift. People ask questions and after you’ve solved their problem, go away.

I was five when Rosalie found her Gift and started Buzzing around Mum’s head.

“Such a clever girl,” Mum said.

Ugh! If I were a great black crow, I’d really make my sister Buzz.

I pictured the big, black crow—and I was IT. I flapped and cawed, a stupid little kid who was too proud of himself.

Mum was thrilled. “You’re a Changer, Freddy. A great gift!”

Changing was fun for a couple of years, till the family saw how useful a horse—or an elephant—could be, when there was work to be done.

One day I decided I had had enough. It was the afternoon of The Big Game, and I’d settled in front of the TV when Mr Jamison rang. His champion bull had disappeared. “Stolen out of the paddock!” 

I wondered where the thieves were holding the bull and as even as the words left my mouth, I knew I wouldn’t be watching the Big Game.

I Changed into a kestrel, and saw the bull, penned in the gully, ready to be trucked away. When Mr Jamison came to collect his beast, Dad offered my help. Have you ever tried to move a frightened bull? I Changed into a cattle dog, but it took all afternoon to get the animal home. 

I was still sore about missing the Big Game when Rosalie nipped my ear, Mum yelled about the broken vase, and everyone blamed me. I had had enough. I was sick of Changing.

I made my move that night.

“I’m not hungry, Mum,” I said, poking at my favourite sausages. “Can I go to bed?”

That worried her. “You might like some ice cream later,” she said. I refused dessert.

I probably should have missed more meals, but next morning I was ravenous.

“I’m OK,” I said in my weakest voice. “I just came over funny for a while. Sort of empty,” I improvised. “I feel — sort of light.”

Mum put extra bacon on my plate.

Later she wanted apples for a pie. She thought I’d Change to a monkey to climb the tree, but I dragged a ladder out of the shed. She wondered why I took so long.

“Sorry. . .” I turned away, as if I did not want to talk.

After dinner Mum dropped her glasses behind the bookcase and asked me to get them. An easy job for a mouse. I piled most of the books on the floor, then tried to move the shelves. I must have pulled too hard. They fell with a crash. I ran out of the room, rubbing my eyes.

After that, nobody talked about Changing in front of me. I tried to look miserable, which was hard because I had never enjoyed myself so much. I could watch as much TV as I liked or play football. Dad came home with a new computer game and Raymond let me practise driving his truck.

This went on for a couple of months, till one afternoon when I was sitting by the window, watching Rosalie Buzz outside, Aunt Margaret came into the kitchen with Mum. They did not notice me.

“Freddy looks all right,” Mum said, and my aunt agreed.

“He is probably just run down,” she said.

“Do you think he’ll ever Change again?”

“Oh yes.” Sometimes I thought Aunt Margaret saw too much. I’d have to be careful.

I sat very still, watching Rosalie. The silly little thing was stuck. Before I stopped Changing, I would have rescued her. Today, she’d have to wait till Mum got a ladder. That would teach her to be careful where she Buzzed!

But there were crows! Lots of them! I could see them circling over Rosalie. An easy meal. 

No time to open the window.

I Changed into an eagle. Heavy enough to shatter glass! Fast enough to reach the crows! 

“There was no time,” I said afterwards while Mum wiped off the blood and tried to bury me in bandages.

“So, you have your Gift again,” Aunt Margaret said.

“It just came back.” 

“Hmm.” She winked. “You’ve got a great Gift, Freddy, but you’re just a boy. Don’t squander it on little things.”

I looked serious, but I was grinning inside as I promised not to “squander my gift.”

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Robin Hillard

Robin Hillard has had a number of stories published in magazines and ezines including AntipodeanSF.

She now lives in Melbourne with a bossy little dog who takes her to the off leash park.  


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pixie willo 100Pixie is a voice actor, cabaret performer & slam poet From the Blue Mountains in NSW.

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geraldine borella 200Geraldine Borella writes adult short stories and stories for children and has been published in anthologies for both. In 2018, one of her children’s short stories placed second in The Buzz Words Short Story Prize and she won an ASA Emerging Writer’s Mentorship. She currently works part-time as a hospital pharmacist and as an online creative writing tutor.

She’s fascinated by stories that expand upon today’s technology, addressing the moral and ethical issues that might arise. Equally, she enjoys the creative freedom that writing for children allows. Right now, she’s writing a young adult novel, reworking a middle grade novel and writing adult short stories when inspiration strikes. She lives with her husband, Tim, in Yungaburra, Far North Queensland and dreams of one day taking a European gap year.

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garry dean narratorGarry Dean lives on the Mid Coast of New South Wales Australia, and has been a fan of SF for most of his natural life. Being vision impaired, he makes good use of voice recognition and text to speech in order to write. Many of his stories have appeared in AntipodeanSF over the years, and his love of all things audio led him to join the narration team in 2017.

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timonthy gwyn 100Timothy Gwyn is a professional pilot in Canada, where he flies to remote communities. During a lull in his flying career, he was a radio announcer for three years, and he is also an author.

In addition to short stories at AntipodeanSF and, his SF novel is available internationally in print and ebook formats. "Avians" draws on his love of alternative aviation to tell the tale of a girl who runs away from home to join a cadre of glider pilots on a world without metal or fossil fuels.

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tim borellaTim Borella is an Australian author, mainly of short speculative fiction published in anthologies, online and in podcasts.

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sarah pratt 200Sarah Pratt is an avid fiction writer and a Marketing Consultant.

She is currently working on her first novel but loves diving into short stories to bring a little lightness, intrigue or humour to the day.

Her work has appeared in Sponge Magazine and The Commuting Book.

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alistair lloyd 200Alistair Lloyd is a Melbourne based writer and narrator who has been consuming good quality science fiction and fantasy most of his life.

You may find him on Twitter as <@mr_al> and online at <>.


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The Contributors

jolie lindholm 200Jolie Lindholm grew up in small towns on Long Island, NY, later moving to Florida for college.

When not writing fiction, she is acting frontwoman for South Florida rock band The Darling Fire, along with her husband of twenty-three years. They share two chihuahuas — one attack and one docile — that rule the roost.

Sci-fi and horror are her biggest influences, and she has fond memories of playing adventure games on floppy disk. She holds an MA in Criminal Justice and a BA in Communication.

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Chana Kohl works in Jerusalem in clinical trials and research, trotting the globe and writing speculative fiction in her spare time.

An avid sci-fi reader since adolescence, Chana only recently turned this passion towards writing, frequently incorporating cultural and religious elements from West and North Africa, Southern Europe, and the Middle East.

Her flash stories have previously appeared or will appear on 365 Tomorrows and the upcoming anthology Planetside: Science Fiction Drabbles.

chana kohl 200You can follow her creative writing journey on Twitter: <@chanakohl> or on her blog: <>.

chris karageorge 200Chris Karageorge is a lover, brother, son, neighbour and a keen observer of all things in sight. 

He reads, writes and cooks in his spare time and dreams of coffee darker than a moonless night. 

He is from Melbourne, Victoria and can be found walking his pug Monty during the weekends.


bethany tatman 200Bethany Tatman is an aspiring writer who currently resides in one of the more hipster suburbs of Melbourne, Australia.

She has previously been published in Lot’s Wife.

In her spare time, she enjoys reading a variety of genres of books — but fantasy will always be her favourite.

She can be found at <@bethany_writes> on Twitter.


william kerr 200William Kerr is a self-professed science fiction enthusiast. He was born and raised in Tasmania but now calls Canberra home.

His personal preference is hard science fiction and dystopian-style stories which definitely influenced his first published piece ‘The Burning’.

He is looking forward to publishing more flash fiction and is hoping to become a regular contributor.


Robin Hillard has had a number of stories published in magazines and ezines including AntipodeanSF.

She now lives in Melbourne with a bossy little dog who takes her to the off leash park.  


lauriebell 2 200Laurie Bell lives in Melbourne, Australia. She was that girl you found with her nose always buried in a book. She has been writing ever since she was a little girl and first picked up a pen. From books to short stories, radio plays to snippets of ideas and reading them aloud to anyone who will listen.

She is the author of The Butterfly Stone and The Tiger's Eye (YA/Fantasy) White Fire (Sci-Fi) and The Good, the Bad and the Undecided (a unique collection of short stories set during the events of White Fire/Sci-Fi). 

You can read more of her work on her blog <> Look for her on Facebook <> or Twitter: <@LaurienotLori>

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Harris Tobias lives and writes in Charlottesville, Virginia. He is the author of two novels: The Greer Agency & A Felony of Birds. He has written dozens of short stories many of which are available on line at <>. He is the author of many children’s books including At The Robot ZooMoonRivet Saves His Skin and An Alphabet Book of Bugs available in print from CreateSpace and as ebooks for Nook & Kindle. You can find links to his writings here: <>

ps cottier 200PS Cottier is a poet who lives in Canberra, with a particular interest in speculative poetry.

She has been published widely at home and in Canada, England, New Zealand and the USA.

Two of her horror poems were finalists in the Australian Shadows Awards for 2020. Her latest books are Monstrous, which is a volume of speculative poems, and Utterly, which is non-genre.

PS Cottier is the Poetry Editor at The Canberra Times and blogs at <>


kevinjphyland 200Old enough to just remember the first manned Moon landing, Kevin was so impressed he made science his life.

Retired now from teaching he amuses himself by reading, writing, following his love of weather and correcting people on the internet.

He’s been writing since his teens and hopes he will one day get it right.

He can be found on twitter @KevinPhyland where he goes by the handle of CaptainZero and his work is around the place if you search using google or use the archive.